My Word!!!

Said, "I struggle with anxiety," tossed it in the air. And the response hit different, kind of cut me to the bone, "Don't claim that!" they declared, like it's a seed I'd sown, I'm not claiming anything, this just how my spirit goes, This isn't a trend, a phase, or something for the shows, From a young age, doctor's office, words I couldn't comprehend, "Anxiety disorder," felt like my world would end, My mind started running wild, like something was wrong with me, A broken piece of wiring, for everyone to see, But time brought clarity, slowly, truly, bit by bit, Realized it's just me, the way my consciousness is knit. They said, "Don't claim it," but this isn't a choice I made, It's the rhythm in my mind, a silent serenade, Of worry, fear, and doubt, a part of my design, I have anxiety disorder, it's undeniably mine, Not claiming it, I'm just saying this is how it really is, A constant companion...

I don’t prefer the silence, but I don’t mind the room empty, If you left right now, it wouldn’t kill me, I’m already comfy, I have friends, I have goals, I have calls I can answer, But Solitude is a dance that I already mastered, I’m built different, I can sit and just breathe, I don’t need the company, but I’m easy to receive, I don’t mind being alone Grew up in a house where the walls were my closest crew, Had hours on the clock where the only sound was the view, Not by choice, but necessity, the definition of solo flight, A quiet kid, navigating shadows and artificial light, That forced independence, I question if it was good for the brain, Did it cause the distance? Did it just minimize the pain?, I don’t know, but that’s the blueprint, that’s the foundation laid, Learned to settle my own spirit, never waiting for the parade, Now I see people running from the stillness, chasing the noise, Treating quiet time like a flaw, avoiding all their internal voids, Me? I look forward to the ...

This is a chapter from my past A lesson etched in concrete, something built to last, Eighth grade, that's the year, my whole world shifted around. Before that, I was cool, never heard a hateful sound, Never got picked on, never knew the bully's glare, Walked through elementary with not a single care, Then came the eighth grade, and a switch just flipped, Suddenly I'm targeted, felt like I was stripped Of innocence, mentally, and physically too, Tortured for no reason, like what'd I ever do?, They'd clown my clothes, my hair, my face, my every move, Every single day, felt like I had to prove Something I wasn't, just to escape the hate, Trapped in that cycle, sealed by a cruel fate, Harassed in the hallways, even outside the school, Felt like the world was laughing, playing me for a fool. It was a turning point, a fire in the night, Showed me darkness, but also showed me light, This wasn't random chaos, there was a higher plan, God had a message for this young...

Let me take it way back, to a simpler, younger time, Eleven years old, before I learned how to truly rhyme, I was trying to figure out my place, Then I stumbled on some words that put saw a smile on my face, It wasn't just a book, it was magic, pure and deep, Felt a sudden connection, promises my soul would keep, Love at first sight, no question, it just hit me like a spark, Felt my spirit ignite, shining light into the dark, It wasn't just a phase, Poetry became my hobby, through my wilder, younger days, My constant companion, a secret garden in my mind, Where every thought found rhythm, leaving worries far behind. When the world got heavy, and the pressure started to build, Stress reliever on demand, every empty space it filled, More than just lines, it became my truest, dearest friend, Stuck by my side, from the start until the very end, When I needed to pray, needed to talk to the Most High, Penned down my heart's confessions, reaching heaven through the sky, It's m...

I was very young when the lessons started sinking in, Not taught in a classroom, never forced against my will, My grandmama’s hands, the true discipline, Folding clothes, folding hands, sitting perfectly still, She didn’t preach from a pulpit, she lived the command, Bible on the nightstand, smudged pages, worn leather band, Mom showed me grace, how to carry the weight, It was action over sermons, They planted the seed, but never chained me to the tree, They just showed me the light and then let me breathe free, I took the foundation, the wisdom they imparted, But the real structure began the moment I departed, To find my own voice, my own dialogue to start, A connection written on the chambers of my heart. You can talk doctrine, you can quote the ink, But I got proof firsthand an undeniable link, It’s not just what I read, it’s what I saw with my eye, There’s a power that moves when you cry out to the sky, I don't need your validation, I don't need the nod, I based my faith on ...

(Verse 1) I felt the world shift, the colors all ignite, I was bathed in a joy that burned so pure and bright, Like a miracle, a gift from up above, Walked through my days in the sunshine of your love, So deep, so sure, no shadow dared to creep, Lost in your beauty, promises to keep. (Chorus) It was like heaven on earth, a celestial gleam, Like living inside a never-ending dream, I felt like the air I breathed, the beating in my chest, A love so potent, put all my fears to rest, Thought it was forever, etched in stone and sky, A love that made me feel like I could truly fly. (Verse 2) But seasons turn, the light can fade and die, And shadows lengthen, where laughter used to lie, A sudden chill, a silence in the air, A hollow echo, a burden hard to bear, The sting of loss, a wound that we wouldn’t mend, A pain so sharp, I thought it’d never end, Drove me to my knees, a desperate, lonely plea, Only God could set my spirit free. (Chorus) It was like heaven on earth, a celestial gleam, Lik...

(Verse 1) The radio is loud and complicated, Every new track is over-stated, They pile up the metaphors and the high notes, Trying to capture love in fleeting quotes, But tonight, I just want few minutes, To slow it down to where the feeling fits, No flowery script, no clever rhyme scheme, Just the honest language of a waking dream. (Pre-Chorus) I pick the pen up slow, Ready to tell you what you already know, And realize the truest words are the ones I don't rehearse. (Chorus) I just want to write you a love song, No complicated words, just where I belong, Something like...you are the simple truth, the easy light, You are the reason I sleep well at night, I don't need a hundred ways to say your name, You’re the quiet comfort that puts out the flame, You are the rhythm, steady and strong, And that’s the meaning of this love song. (Verse 2) If I told you that you were sunshine, That feels too easy, almost unkind, Because sunshine fades when the clouds roll in heavy, And you’re th...

Let set the record straight before these rumors fly, You hear a painful poem, assume it's me about to cry?, No, sometimes I'm just a lens, a witness to the sky, Observing human nature, as the moments pass us by, You think every line's a page ripped straight out of my soul?, A personal confession, me losing all control?, Sometimes it's just a story, making broken spirits whole, Or painting vivid pictures, reaching for a goal. Don't think that everything I write is just about me, I use my creative license, for the world to see, My creative license, to talk about lost love's plea, My creative license, for true love, wild and free, I use it to write about my real life, raw and true, But I also talk about things that I see others go through, Sometimes I just fantasize, spin a dream for me and you, It's my creative license, that's what artists do! I can paint a heartbreak, like my world just fell apart, The raw, aching emptiness, a dagger in the heart, And the...

I look at the world as a whole and think of all the problems, I rarely do this because I tend to focus on whats in front of my face, Not sure if this mental space is the right place for me, Then again what can I do? I'm not indifferent to the worlds pain, I feel it, The question I ask is does the world feel my pain? I assume we all go through the storms and the rain, Different times, Different types of weather, I couldn't handle your stress, I couldn't live your life, And vise versa you should be the first to admit you don't know if you can handle my pain, The thing's I deal with or as real as yours, Rich or poor we all have issues, I just wish you could see straight to the heart.

You broke my heart, I cried for weeks, Leaving me made me feel weak, It basically crippled me, That’s why I come to the determination I was in real love, That is a validation because you had to know I loved you, Why? I told you, I showed you, You still walked, ” I can’t love you right now” Your last words, Right now?! Well, when?! I loved you unconditionally thick and thin, I risked my freedom, friendship’s and much more for you! And this is how you do? I could have been better, But I’m not a cheater or a lier, Your a quitter, Life hit both of us hard after you decided to leave, I didn’t ask you to go, If there is a wrong and a right in this God know, You couldn’t stop loving me, because you never did, Even though I really don’t like you, I can never stop loving you, I have moved on, I just can’t forget the potential we had, It’s your fault it went bad, You Know why, You walked out!!!!!!!!

It's an odd thing, this fight within my soul, You want the right thing so bad, but still lose control, Your eyes on the prize, redemption's shining gleam, But you still fall short, living out a broken dream. I woke up this morning, fresh start, clean slate, Swore I'd walk righteous, escape every hateful t hought, word, or action, from the minute I breathed, A perfect disciple, fully believed, But by the afternoon, I had many slips, a few quick thoughts, A subtle transgression, an old battle I fought, And lost, just like that, despite every plea, A sinner in action, though I don't wanna be, It's a strange contradiction, this human design, Craving a divine mind, but stuck in 'mine'. What a mystery, how the spirit can yearn, For purity's fire, but still get burned, No one possesses that iron-clad will, To outrun the dark, standing perfectly still, We all fall short, every single one of us, A universal truth, we sometimes refuse to discuss, We brush it away,...

Let me rewind the time, back to my teenage haze, When "keeping it real" was the motto, etched in my younger days, The whole school, was speaking truths, or so we thought we did, From the corner store  to the hallway that was the creed, Every interaction, plantin' that " keep it real" seed, Talking crazy, standing tall, no room for the fake, Every word, a declaration, for goodness sake. Strangers on the street, eyes meet, a nod, a glare, Have to be authentic, have to show them that I care about my image, Every situation, a test, a chance to prove my worth, This facade of realness, rooted deep within my earth, Of my ego, my insecurity, a tightrope walk I trod, Trying to impress the masses, trying to play the role of God in my own little world. But then the years rolled by, the lines began to blur, That "realness" I was clinging to, started to feel like a slur, A liability, a burden, a constant, gnawing fear, Of saying the wrong thing, of showing somethin...

Time moves fast, blink and the years just collide, Future's ahead, but the past keeps a hold on my mind, Trying to push forward, chase the light, reach new heights, But the memories flash, they shine ever so bright. I used to think "forever" stretched out, an endless expanse, Now the calendar flips, like a quick, frenzied dance, Minutes turn to hours, hours into days, Blur of seasons shifting, in so many different ways, Remember laughter echo, from good old times, Sun-drenched memories, like sweet, melodic rhymes, I had many good days, thank the Lord for his light, Shining through the shadows, making everything right, But the future's a magnet, pulling me to what's next, Still, my mind drifts back, reading old love letters in texts, It's a delicate balance, this present, future, and past, Trying to hold steady, while the moments fly so fast. And it wasn't always smooth, the road got rough too, Faced my share of struggles, had some mountains to get through,...

"Money grows on trees!" "Just reach out your hand, catch that easy breeze!" That's fiction, a slick, twisted lie, Because if it was true, tell me, when in comes to money so many people cry? Why are the streets full of struggle, why are the bills stacking high?, Why are we stressin'g about money, we have  hunger in our eye? They preach "manifest wealth," "just believe and achieve", But my bank account is laughing what am I supposed to believe?, If the path to the riches was paved with pure gold, clear as day, Then mansions would rise on every broke-down block today., But I'm looking around, all I see is the grind, Worn-out souls in the trenches, leaving sanity behind. I need it, I want it, that money, that green, To escape from the cycle, the struggle unseen, But there's a limit to how low I'm willing to stoop, Won't sell my soul just to jump through their hoop, They say "hustle hard, want it bad," like that's...

(Verse 1) My world spins fast, like a blur of gray, Sometimes the shadows try to sway, When my spirit is dimming and losing light, Lost in the battle, day and night, You walk in, with a radiant gleam, You shatter my doubts, you wake my dreams, And suddenly, the air feels thin, I feel a power start within. (Chorus) Your love,it's a superpower, Makes me feel I can conquer anything,any hour, No mountain too high, no river too wide, With you by my side, I can face the tide, And my faith, it soars, to a brand new height, Because God blessed me with your guiding light, Your love, it makes me believe In all the wonders I can achieve. (Verse 2) Before you, I’d stumble, I’d hesitate, Afraid to push, to seal my fate, Thoughts of "can't" would fill my head, Leaving my best intentions dead, But now, when challenges arise, I see the strength reflected in your eyes. (Chorus) Your love,it's a superpower, Makes me feel I can conquer anything, any hour, No mountain too high, no ri...

They say that what goes up, must come down, the cycle's spun, And I acknowledge gray skies, when the good times haven't begun, I know the storm clouds gather, days get dim and cold, When the weight of the world sits heavy, stories get old, But then that morning breaks, and a brand new path unfolds, Sky turns sapphire blue, a beauty to behold. Catch that warmth on my skin, feels like freedom just took hold, Every breath a blessing, richer than pure gold. I love a sunny day, when worries just melt away, No burdens on my shoulders, everything feels okay, I feel good, I look good, it seems like no one can dim my ray, A wide smile on my face, feeling blessed, come what may. Thank God for sunny days, I pray for them  every day! Steps are lighter than a feather, I have a bounce in my stride, Mirror tells me 'you're the man,' nothing to hide, I feel on point,a light in my eye, Everything about the moment, feels like I can fly, No stress in my chest, no reason to sigh, Just ...

(Ounce of Prevention) Check the blueprint before they pour the concrete form, Check the tire pressure, watch the gauge before the storm, See, the difference between a master and a man who lost it all, Is one repairs the leak before the whole river fall, They talking shortcuts, skipping steps to get the loot fast, But the foundation cracked, you won't survive the future blast, I’m a mechanic with the future; preventative maintenance, Don't wait for the engine to blow to start paying attention, Anxiety’s a tax, levied by the clock, But you can’t buy futures, you just gotta invest in the now stock, I keep the wisdom close, the ego always checked low, I’m working with the soil, I don't dictate how the wheat grows, Don’t be foolish a man, a stitch in time saves nine, It’s not about controlling fate, it’s about reading the sign, Fix the window pane, change the filter in the AC, Beause a crisis costs a thousand times more than peace you see? (The Balance) They say an ounce of prev...

I scribble the world is blessed, You have to walk in purpose, put your spirit to the test, I speak on the creator, the source of light and the grace, Who etched a masterpiece on the canvas of your face, But listen close, you can't truly find the path, If you don't first forgive the person staring in the looking glass, I’m pushing positivity when the pressure gauge is maxed, Being happy through the struggle, that’s a spiritual tax Cherish every sunrise, fight through every night. Love God, love self, love the whole design, Find the love, chase the light, let the real you shine, Every single tick of the clock is gold, don't worry about a deadline. If you can’t love the ones that you started with, where do you begin? I hug my Moms tighter, I invest in their years, Because the calendar keeps turning, drying up those hidden tears. Valuable seconds spent on petty problems is a waste, I’m running the marathon, I’m setting my own pace, Time is the currency that even billionaires ca...

The Threshold Paradox ( The Beginning Rush) Open the gate, watch the skyline clear, this is the rush, the moment before the fear. Smell the fresh concrete, the blueprint is drawn, a brand new saga where the weak are gone. It’s beautiful chaos, the engine ignite, jumping the track on a cold, silent night. Every nerve screaming, the adrenaline spike, that terrifying bliss when you first grab the mic. We call it promise, the purity of zero, a clean slate hero ready for the high narrow. But don’t forget the strain, the cost of the key, starting something big means abandoning the ‘we.’ It's the pressure of potential, the anxiety hum, knowing if you fail, you’ll be the idiot one. It’s exciting, it’s gorgeous, yeah, I’m loving the view, but the start line is always scary too. (The Duality) The double-edged sword of the cycle we ride, where excitement and sorrow can’t ever divide. One door swings open, the next one is shut, navigating the threshold, stuck in the rut. The start line is thri...

Deep down I know every day's a blessing,  Every second, a miracle, a breath I didn't earn, Truthfully, it doesn't always feel like that, a tough lesson to learn, Life's so short, a flash, then it's gone in the breeze, A deep mystery, knocking you down to your knees. So don't ever believe a soul who says they have it clocked, They have all the answers packaged, every single door unlocked. I know what I believe in, where my hope takes flight, A quiet conviction burning steady, holding me tight, Some mornings, I'm still lost in a haze, Like a little kid wandering through life's confusing maze, The weight of the unknown, the questions in my head, If I didn't believe in God, I swear every dream would be dead, No meaning, no reason, just a struggle to survive, No light in the darkness, no feeling truly alive. Because if the Creator wasn't real, what's the purpose of it all? Just dust in the wind, destined for a lonely fall, I'm not pushingmy tr...

If you live for the cheers, you’ll die from the boo’s… But who really judges you? Let’s choose the truth. You can hold your head high, keep your chin up, but they still will throw dirt, Eyes on the crown, but they swear that it hurts, Fake love disguised as wolves in sheep's vests, Smiling in your face while they're plotting your death, They don’t want your light, they just need a fuse, They don’t want you to rise, just a seat for the views, But pressure makes diamonds, so I stand in the heat, They scream, "I won’t shine", watch God work while I sleep. See, validation’s a drug, an addiction’s, a trap, One day they cheer you, the next day they snap, But if my worth came from crowds, I’d be broke in my soul, So I measure my steps, let the Father control. If you live for the cheers, you’ll die from the hate, Everybody's not real, don’t confuse it with fate, God loves you deep, so just walk in your worth, Even when they don’t see it, his vision comes first. Trust is a...

First off, I have to give thanks as I look up in  the Skies Another rotation, another year unfolds before my eyes, A fresh chapter gifted, a blessing from on high, For every breath I'm breathing, for every cloudy or clear sky, And to my loved ones, my anchor, my strength, my solid ground, The realest souls around me, where true comfort can be found, Without you all, what's a journey? A lonely path I'd walk, You fill my spirit, fuel my soul, in every talk and thought. But listen close, there's a lesson I've been screaming all my life, Time is the currency, don't stir up any strife, Precious? A ticking clock, a fleeting, sacred prize, A gift from the Divine, reflected in your eyes, Don't waste it, chase it, embrace it, every beat and chime, Value your moments now, don't wait until it's winter time. Now if you know me, truly, you know I'm a stickler for the clock, Don't tell me 7:30 and show up at 8 o'clock, My blood pressure rises, my patie...

The pressure's building, feels like a brick wall, Got to pay the rent, got to stand up tall, Mind racing a mile a minute, thoughts in a knot, But I'm sketching out a smile, like it's all I got, This stress is a beast, gnawing at my soul, Trying to keep it cool, trying reach my goal, Maybe if I pen it, let the ink bleed out, This heavy cloud inside, I can finally shout, "I'm happy, I'm happy," though the bills are piled high, Just have to shift the focus, look up at the sky. Because maybe if I write about being happy, even though I'm stressed, Things will change, put my mind to the test, Maybe if I write about being in love, even though I'm in pain, Wash away the sorrow, let sunshine through the rain, Maybe if I write about things being normal, when everything's insane, Find the steady rhythm, break free from this chain, Maybe it will all work out, maybe it's the key, Writing my way out, setting this spirit free. Wallet's looking lean, t...

(The Sighting & The Flashback) Seven years have passed, I’ve moved, changed my address, Then I saw the ghost of my past life standing by the ingress, At the store, right by the register, no less, Took a minute for the memory to fully coalesce, My first roommate, we knew each other since grade school, But don't get it twisted, we never followed the same rule, We shared a lease, we shared a key, but never trust or heart, We were only associates, that’s where the separation starts, He was a chapter I deliberately closed off and sealed it, Like a broken contract, a feeling I had concealed it ( The Toxicity & The Reason) The reason we parted? He decided to get loud and disrespectful, Crossed a line that made me keeping my distance seem more respectable, See, that’s what he was known for, crossing lines and breaking trust, The kind of man who turned every promise back to dust, He came pre-packaged, a walking liability, nothing but trouble, The only reliable thing was watching the...